In need of new motivation

Today marked my first weight gain since losing weight. My girlfriend and I have been making eating out a habit, even during dinner and I need to stop. With my current lack of exercise, it is very bad for me to eat unhealthy.

It had been three weeks since I weighted in last because I knew I have been unhealthy. Today I found out the damages; I gained 7.5 pounds and am now at 137.5. This needs to get reversed right away. I’m going to do everything I can to cut out the unhealthy food for dinner, and maybe start waking up early to go to the gym at my apartment complex.

I’m not willing to ever go back to gaining weight, no matter what I have to do. It has been quite the process to get to this point. While I feel very accomplished at 230 pounds, I don’t feel like my weight loss goal has been met. I want to be thin, but just normal. I’ve come this far, and if I lost another 30 pounds I think I’d be almost there. My initial goal involved two phases; the first was getting down to 230 which is the weight I started college at. The second is being thinner than I’ve ever been before. I was never a fat kid, but I wasn’t thin either.

My second goal was 200 pounds, and I thought that would be my thin weight. Now that I’m down to 230 I’m not confident that losing another 30 pounds would put me at my ideal weight; I may not be thin. Before I start worrying about that I need to start losing weight again; I should try to get down to 200 pounds then make a determination at that point.